perlu konsisten, baru lah perasaan cinta itu terpaku di hati.

Cinta sejati.

ape agaknye rasa bila kita betul betul dah jatuh cinta?
jatuh cinta pada sang pencipta.
cinta yang pasti.
yang kekal abadi.

aku rasa aku belum lagi jatuh cinta.
sebab rindu itu hanya datang dan pergi sahaja.

hello babyyyyyyyy

much love : *

jiwang beb

Ini Deep.

Genap setahun

hari ini, pada tahun lepas, pertama kali aku panggil dia syng.
simbolik lah konon nye aku akhirnye mengaku yang aku sayang dia.

Banyak sangat benda dah jadi selama setahun nie.
lepas satu, satu datang.

 but apart from that.
 I learn to love you conditionally.

remember your promise sarey?
yang syng harap cinta kita akan sampai ke jinjang pelamin?

perkara yang menjengkelkan diri ini

Assalamualaikum.

Awal tahun 2014 is not that good for me, thhings happen. bad things!

And since, life does not come with any instruction, I have to deal with it. And you have no idea how bad I wish those bad things are only a bad dreams of mine. But sadly it was an ugly truth. a reality.

So, I come up with things that I HATE the most. I know hate is a strong word, but I can't think of any other words. There are 5 actually

1. Liar
2. liar
3. liar
4. broken promises
5. backstabber

being lied to, is not a good feeling. Especially by your love one. I know some of the people out there think that, it's better to lie to make someone happy.Is it? My opinion is, Bullshit!

It does't mean that I never lied before, I did. I am not an angel. It's just that, the concept is totally wrong!

just imagine this, you make mistakes, then you lie to your friend about it. problem solved. NO!

once you lie, you're gonna lie again and again and again just to cover yourself up. And you know the truth will show up eventually, common. So what will happen when the friend knows the truth? She will felt betrayed, alive! and there are 90% chance that thing are not going the same like before.

Yes, your friend might just forgive you, but they dont forget. I bet on that.

It's just sad. So why not telling the truth at the first time?

****

I might over thinking, and I do came up with my own theory on my mind and I just keep looking back to find which sides are you really in.

You say you dont know how to tell me, but you've promise me. don't you?

it's okay, Im not gonna ask you again, for now.

just wait till we met eye to eye, then I'll ask you.

I'll ask you, till you got no answer for me.

I'll ask you, till you really realize what you have done wrong.

I'll ask you, till you know how hurt you made me feel.

and at that moment, only eyes will determine the truth and not the ear.

yes, it still hurt inside, but I can't denied the fact that I miss you

yes, I forgive you, but I never forget

my heart is having a bad time to accept the fact that, you are only a human being, a normal type of guy who make mistakes.

I dont know, I guess I miss the old you more. The one that ask earnestly boleh tak kalau c'e nak sayang e? on the top of beach 4 while watching sunrise, after being rejected for the first time. 

Yeah, for the second time, a guy that confess to me eye to eye. ( yg first bila cinta monyet dulu, boleh mintak couple dekat tamek, time rehat, on exam day! ahahaha. )

I thought you were different from the typical man out there. But, I thought wrong.

Nevertheless, 25 days to go. I hope you're gonna be ready, cuz I have sooooo much to clarify on my mind wright now.

promise?

What ever happen.
Dont leave me alone. plaease.

bittersweet

There are times that I wish I can squeeze his neck or just karate kick him with some back hand action and just punch him really hard on his stomach or I also might slap him until he got no more cheek.

But most of the times, I just want to hug him and never let go of it.

I miss you stupid!

those sweet memories.

Remember those days when we can hangout every night?
We just sitting at the chair and enjoy the night,
Sometimes we will hangout at the beach, searching for our stars and counting the plane,
And there are times that I will accompany you at the game room,
watching you play pool and sometimes ping pong,
And I remember one night, when we play ping pong, I just can't win.
Cuz I don't know how to smash =.=

There will be times that we just walk around the beach,
enjoying the night breeze.
And if Suji Lounge are not bussy, we will hang there,
And you will sang me songs.
Those old songs, the jiwang one =.=

before hanging out together, we will eat dinner at your office,
and you will cooked the best nasi goreng ever!
And never forgot to spoon feed me (:

And when you sent me home,
you will always wait for me to go upstairs before you go.
And I will turn to you, stand there while waving goodbye to you for 10 second before going up.
staring at your face with your silly smile, so that I can sleep well that night/
I remember, there is one time when you almost fell down the stair when you wave back at me (:

I still remember those sweet memories
How I wish we can live like that forever syng.

it's just me.

being cynical to someone, is fun sometimes.
 untuk menunjukkan bahawa 'kau', adalah salah, dengan cara yang menusuk tepat di jantung, dimana hanya 'kau' dan 'aku' sahaja yang faham.

oh kerep.! I write nonsense on early in the morning. 

toddles stranger.

how ironic.

It is hard for me to accept that there are stages that you have to go through in a relationship. I mean most of the relationship. for some girl out there who have a man that treat you the same from first he knows you till now. keep him. take a very good care of him. he's one in a gazillion!

mak masak, sedap.

 lunch tadi mak masak sup ayam, ayam goreng berempah, sambal belacan, dan belen gulai daging salai semalam.

sedap mak masak. sungguh, tak tipu.

sampai, aku makan, tambah nasi dua kali. sedap mak masak.

selang 10 minit setel isi perut. aku hirup kopi, lepaskan gian.

selang 15 minit, hidung aku jadi tak tentu arah.

hachooooo hachoooooooooooooooooooooo, hidung aku menjerit.

rupanya, sambal belacan mak buat adalah besertakan belacan. selalunya tidak. kebiasaannya cili hidup + tomato + cili padi + bawang merah sahaja.

nak habis dah satu kotak tisu nie.

sedap mak masak.

mak masak, sedap.

after 3 years of hardwork!

NO. I it's not really-that-hard-work back then. hehehe. All I can remember is going to class- 'learn' / high lighthing the important stuff on the text book(yes, during lectures. hehe)-went  back to the hostel - throw away (far far away) all the notes and books- hibernating.

pretty much the same cycle every day. except for this one subject. cooking classes. I will ALWAYS study before going to classes. mann. how I miss those days! those awesome days!

Alhamdullilah, I manage to graduate on time, with not that so 'flying colors'. but just enough to make my parents proud.

my heart whisper : gosh! I never imagine growing up would be this hard.

and then mr brain said : do you even try?

communication skill

assalamualaikum.

happy saturday guys.
 Ya know how I hate making new friends rigt. i've mention it before, because of the consequences.
dan sebab tulah juga, I lack of communication skill. fail.kalau la ada subjek ni masa belajar dulu, konfem kene repeat kelas banyak kali!

even masa keje dulu, if ada budak baru masuk, it is impossible untuk aku bond dengan diorang dalam sekelip mata, even if dia friendly and talkative. it will at least take a week la untuk aku selesa dengn diorang. oh. and now I miss them.
okok. back to the topic. eye contact is the most, I repeat the-most essential thing when we commuicate. setuju? and bab ni la yang aku fail. contoh macam semalam. bila dia on the way hanta aku balik rumah.
*situasi dalam kereta
masa nak sampai rumah tu, ade la jiran jiran yang duk ,melepak kat depan rumah. and, when he saw the aunties yang tengah melepak tu, dia angguk kepala, pastu senyum. And I was like
me: eh, kenal ke?
him: taklah, kan kita lalu depan rumah dia ni. kena la senyum. kang dia kata sombong pulak.

haaa. nampak tak? aku pulak, memang tak la nak beramah mesra. even if kalau jalan kat public pon, mana ade aku tengok orang sekeliling, aku pandang straight je pun.

mak aku pun penah tegur. tengok tengok la orang sikit, nanti orang kata sombong pulak. hehehe.

what to do. bad habbit. he he.

masa kecik dulu lagi best. bila sedara datang kat rumah, aku lari masuk bilik, malu punya pasal.  malu jenis ape, aku pun tak pasti.
teruk nye perangai.

does anybody even read blogs nowadays?

hello ma ladeyh and Assalamualaikum (greeting to my self, since I know nobody will never know the existance of my blog)
 It's 2 am in the morning right now( Malaysia time, HHAHA). dekat sejam jugak la golek atas katil. tapi mata tak mau lelap. otak pula, waktu ni la dia nak ligat. so, my brain decided( yeah right) to write something here.

I have been scrolling down all of my old post (sikit je padehal,  tak payah nak 'all' sangat la kan). And I was smiling, thinking how time past by in these few month back. daripada keje kat restoran, till now. sekarang aku baru berjinak-jinak dalam perusahaan menanam anggur, tak sampai seminggu pun lagi, sumpah!
ok ok, seminggu tambah dua hari, ok le tuww (sedapkan hati). I was not planning to be a succesful grape planter? (poor vocab. i know -__-). but there is this one problem that I can't figure out. what's next? . can u please tell me the answer?

oh. boring nye cerita pasal what's next nie. nak tau cerita ape yang aku tak kan boring? mehehehehe (gelak malu)
petang tadi itew baruw balik dating nan pakwee itewww.( rempit sangattt).zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
yeah, back to the topic. we were visiting our friend at the hospital. he had some minor surgery in the morning. masa dah sampai hospital tu, kan, tengah elok elok cari parking kat luar(nak elak daripada kena bayar punya pasal), baik punya nampak that friend yang baru lepas operate pagi tadi tu, hisap rokok kat luar hospital. keajaiban apekah ini. (y) bajet keluar simbol.

lepas sibuk pumpang pumpang sembang, beransur la kitorang. untuk meluangkan masa bersama, ehehehe.
he: bie, kita nak pegi mana ni?
me: mmm. pegi kl jom.

so. ke kl la destinasinyaaa.
da sampai kl.

he: bie, nak jalan kat mana nie?
me:round round je la.( sbb malas nak jalan.boleh?)

so, we spent most of the time, in the car. haish. dekat 2 bulan tak jumpa. macam macam story la yang keluar. god. I already miss him alot! eeeeee.kan bagus kalau boleh simpan dia dalam kocek. boleh bawak g mana mana je. kan.

da macam saiko pulak nak simpan dalam poket bagai. hehh.

*note to self

CINTA KEPADA MANUSIA TAK AKAN KEKAL ABADI.

him

the only person that ALWAYS piss me off.
but at the same time, I cant be made at him for too long.

tak tau kenapa.
entah posyen ape di guna kat aku entah.
eeeeeeeeeee benci!

kawan

duniawi je semua ni. ingat tu

it is F R I E N D S H I P

 it is suppose to be a great ukhuwah .
that is full with trustworthy, loyalty, love, respect.

I guess all of you know how hard it is to find a good friend (well at least I know).  Ya know, a really good friend which have the quality.

A P P R E C I A T E THEM! those who are close to you, your friend. that always be there when you needed them. do not neglected them. even if you have the-most-super-great-awesome boyfriend slash girlfriend. just DONT!