hello babyyyyyyyy

much love : *

jiwang beb

Ini Deep.

Genap setahun

hari ini, pada tahun lepas, pertama kali aku panggil dia syng.
simbolik lah konon nye aku akhirnye mengaku yang aku sayang dia.

Banyak sangat benda dah jadi selama setahun nie.
lepas satu, satu datang.

 but apart from that.
 I learn to love you conditionally.

remember your promise sarey?
yang syng harap cinta kita akan sampai ke jinjang pelamin?

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Assalamualaikum.

Awal tahun 2014 is not that good for me, thhings happen. bad things!

And since, life does not come with any instruction, I have to deal with it. And you have no idea how bad I wish those bad things are only a bad dreams of mine. But sadly it was an ugly truth. a reality.

So, I come up with things that I HATE the most. I know hate is a strong word, but I can't think of any other words. There are 5 actually

1. Liar
2. liar
3. liar
4. broken promises
5. backstabber

being lied to, is not a good feeling. Especially by your love one. I know some of the people out there think that, it's better to lie to make someone happy.Is it? My opinion is, Bullshit!

It does't mean that I never lied before, I did. I am not an angel. It's just that, the concept is totally wrong!

just imagine this, you make mistakes, then you lie to your friend about it. problem solved. NO!

once you lie, you're gonna lie again and again and again just to cover yourself up. And you know the truth will show up eventually, common. So what will happen when the friend knows the truth? She will felt betrayed, alive! and there are 90% chance that thing are not going the same like before.

Yes, your friend might just forgive you, but they dont forget. I bet on that.

It's just sad. So why not telling the truth at the first time?

****

I might over thinking, and I do came up with my own theory on my mind and I just keep looking back to find which sides are you really in.

You say you dont know how to tell me, but you've promise me. don't you?

it's okay, Im not gonna ask you again, for now.

just wait till we met eye to eye, then I'll ask you.

I'll ask you, till you got no answer for me.

I'll ask you, till you really realize what you have done wrong.

I'll ask you, till you know how hurt you made me feel.

and at that moment, only eyes will determine the truth and not the ear.

yes, it still hurt inside, but I can't denied the fact that I miss you

yes, I forgive you, but I never forget

my heart is having a bad time to accept the fact that, you are only a human being, a normal type of guy who make mistakes.

I dont know, I guess I miss the old you more. The one that ask earnestly boleh tak kalau c'e nak sayang e? on the top of beach 4 while watching sunrise, after being rejected for the first time. 

Yeah, for the second time, a guy that confess to me eye to eye. ( yg first bila cinta monyet dulu, boleh mintak couple dekat tamek, time rehat, on exam day! ahahaha. )

I thought you were different from the typical man out there. But, I thought wrong.

Nevertheless, 25 days to go. I hope you're gonna be ready, cuz I have sooooo much to clarify on my mind wright now.

promise?

What ever happen.
Dont leave me alone. plaease.

bittersweet

There are times that I wish I can squeeze his neck or just karate kick him with some back hand action and just punch him really hard on his stomach or I also might slap him until he got no more cheek.

But most of the times, I just want to hug him and never let go of it.

I miss you stupid!

those sweet memories.

Remember those days when we can hangout every night?
We just sitting at the chair and enjoy the night,
Sometimes we will hangout at the beach, searching for our stars and counting the plane,
And there are times that I will accompany you at the game room,
watching you play pool and sometimes ping pong,
And I remember one night, when we play ping pong, I just can't win.
Cuz I don't know how to smash =.=

There will be times that we just walk around the beach,
enjoying the night breeze.
And if Suji Lounge are not bussy, we will hang there,
And you will sang me songs.
Those old songs, the jiwang one =.=

before hanging out together, we will eat dinner at your office,
and you will cooked the best nasi goreng ever!
And never forgot to spoon feed me (:

And when you sent me home,
you will always wait for me to go upstairs before you go.
And I will turn to you, stand there while waving goodbye to you for 10 second before going up.
staring at your face with your silly smile, so that I can sleep well that night/
I remember, there is one time when you almost fell down the stair when you wave back at me (:

I still remember those sweet memories
How I wish we can live like that forever syng.